New Beginning!!

Time for New Beginnings. All my life I have been over weight. I have always been the one teased about who heavy I was. I had a real hard time dealing with my weight issues when I was little. I hated going to school because I didn't like being teased, so I would fake being sick to stay home. In high school, I had a hard time with boys. They took advantage of me cause they new I wanted a boyfriend but no boy wanted to be with my cause most boys of that age are looking for a girl with good looks not everything else too. It wasn't until I started to slim down my senior year of high school when I finally got my first real boyfriend, and that didn't last very long. Then it was off to college where the weight goes up and down and up and down and up and up and down and up for what seems like an eternity. Then I met my husband and we got pregnant...with TWINS!!! And I was told I had to gain at least 45-50 lbs for the babies sake. So that was hard to take cause my whole life I hated being fat and to be told that I had to be fatter made me really depressed. I had some complications with the pregnancy causing water to accumulate in my left leg making it swell to 3x it size causing me to gain in total 70lbs with the pregnancy. I weighed 236 lbs. Immediately after the babies were born I dropped down to 190lbs just like that, even before I left the hospital 5 days later. But then being the mother of twins with no help catches up to you cause you cant take care of yourself correctly and all you eat is what is available to you and you end up gaining 20 lbs so now I am up to 210lbs. That was back in August of 2009 since then I lost 40 lbs for my wedding this past December 11, 2010, but I have had some stress come about causing me to gain 17 lbs and now I am back up to 190 lbs. My goal is to lose at least 25 lbs. through a diet and exercise and then....if I get approved...I plan on getting a body lift and breast lift this June. A body lift is a lot like a tummy tuck except the incision goes the entire way around the body, removing fat pockets from your hips, and lifting and tightening your buttocks, and tightening your tummy. At the same time they do a form of liposuction on your legs to smooth everything out. With all the extra skin from having the babies I just don't feel "sexy" anymore and I want to feel SEXY!!!!!! Then I'm also getting a breast lift and augmentation because they have fallen bellow my belly button and they are heavy and they hurt. I know I won't come out of this surgery a supermodel or anything. I am just looking on gaining some confidence to wear something other than jeans and a sweatshirt. I'm young and beautiful on the inside but I'm ready to look like the girl I feel like I should be. I hope you will all support me in my weight loss journey....